12AM Sick Thoughts

I never thought I would stay up till late just thinking about everything and nothing. I used to be a 3am club member but life went well and my 3am demons died or I think they left me (literally) in peace. It's been a good ride since then, but now I am here. Are the demons back? Probably not because I think this time it's me keeping myself up all night or maybe till late at night. I am the root of the problem, I am not blaming my inner demons this time. I am in that season where my life is seemingly slowing down and the major reason is because I am home most of the time and I do not have any project or job that is keeping my mind busy. It's actually today that I read something about the body not wanting to rest as some kind of trauma response and let me just quote that line here; Feeling the need to be busy all the time is a trauma response and fear based distraction from what you'd be forced to acknowledge and feel if you slowed down~ unknown That right there is what...