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The Ugly season of being Jobless

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  This is my third week of being jobless, and I can't even imagine some people have survived a year, not even a month, of being jobless. Job seeking is hard. Job seeking will have you scrolling on LinkedIn for hours and switching between several job listing platforms on Google and social media pages. The most tiring part is it's not easy to get your preferred job, so you always have to go back to your resume to edit it to fit the position that you randomly found on the internet. Sometimes you do not even find anything that fits your skills for days, and you are left questioning your existence. It has been a hectic few weeks for me. My mental health has been tested. In a day, I can move from being highly motivated and in good terms with life to being overly stressed and hopeless. My stress levels elevate every time I find myself in a financial crisis or when I get too idle. Idleness will have you thinking about things like being old enough to be working and not idling in your fa...

My Problem with Menses...

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If there's an after life, I would prefer to be anything but female. They say pregnancy can humble you but my opinion is, being a woman generally humbles you. Tell me why being on your periods is annoying and so inconvenient. As if having some blood flow out of your body three to six days in a month is not enough, they also decide to come with some cramping, bloating, discomfort, mood swings, back pains, diarrhea, add yours. That is not even enough, the prices of these period products are insane and that's double price if your periods sometimes go longer than 4days or yours are heavy. And tell me why using a sanitary towel is so uncomfortable. Not just that, it's even hard to find a brand that fits well with your skin. I know other products like tampons and menstrual cups but their prices sha!  Just imagine a girl from a family that is struggling to put food on the table. A family that cannot afford to buy sanitary towels and some tissues and what if they have no access to e...

The pit of desperation...

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                               pc:vecteezy As a sound adult, one of the things that I have noticed with myself and many others is being desperate. Life can be hard, and life can be harder for some people and softer for others. And when it fails to be soft on us, we are left running up and down trying to soften it. As we run, two things might happen. One, we end up finding the missing puzzle and begin to be contented with life and two, we don't find that missing piece and we end up choosing to be miserable. Being an adult is already hard and adding hopelessness adds pain in it. Desperation in this case might see us doing things that are morally not acceptable which at the end of the day might lead to doing things that are against the law. Morally, say you get into alcohol, drugs and impulsive sex. Desperation according to the dictionary is a state of dispare which can result in extreme behaviour. Something ...

It now makes sense...

Let's talk about life after school and how hard it is to just breathe in peace leave alone surviving. Especially some months post graduation. These are the days when you realise that people who take their own lifes and those who decide to look into some funny ways to get money are actually better off and they do have a point. Another thing is, it's never even entirely about the money. It's when you realise that most of your friends are already working, decided to further their studies and others moved out of the country.  Don't get me wrong though, I am not a fan of comparison. But I'm human, I'll still find myself asking myself what I'm doing wrong cause others seem to be figuring life well and better than me. Not only that, this is the period when most age mates start getting married or getting kids and you're also left wondering if you still exist or you're some spirit that died centuries ago. Okay, it's not that I've been unlucky when it ...